how come club med become hatyai then become tanjung pinang kelong?

but i've become excited that my family is going on a holiday together again!

and i still haven't studied for my last paper on the 3rd. haha

have to start looking for part time jobs. whoever has lobang please tell me!! thanks, i need to earn money to go holidaying!

i think i've celebrated one year of getting my driver's license. without ever driving once after that fateful day. haha

met gen today and talked talked talked. but still felt like we didn't talk enough. updating half year's worth of stuff into a few hours just ain't enough. but till the next time. =)

gosh i'm still not asleep! and there's a paper at 9am. in the claustrophobic hall c.

i like it when you call me darling. like it even more when you call me 'my darling'. and your 'darling darling darling' just makes me wanna kiss you.

haha =p

prime behind my house does not sell toblerone! grr

having a mild headache, but feeling tonnes better than yesterday, which is a sign that i may pull through this after all.

=) spiderman3 may 1st!

i don't like being unable to find you.

every time i start up my computer, it tells me it's attempting to make a connection. but sometimes, i feel so far away.

burnt out. not due to getting the short straws in life, but yet somehow being unable to make everything work out.

sucky paper

when you sense me agitated, i think it's best if you kept your distance. no matter who you are. cause i bite.

eventually i'll work the unknown source of irritability out of my system

5 things i now tell you, one of which is false.

i regret just now.

i'm wondering why i bothered, if it seems that it was of no appreciable value and only managed to disrupt.

i was looking forward to it, the thought mattering more than the act itself.

i'm shocked by my own irritability.

i am tired and i don't want to talk anymore.

i cant study during the weekend, god knows why.

and suddenly everything else in the world seems more interesting than sitting at my table studying. even freecell.

haha going mad.

it seems like as exams are drawing to an end, more people are planning their holidays. where to go for a short escapade. and it just makes this tough period feel so much more worthwhile=)

i don't sleep well lately, have weird dreams and a lousy pillow doesn't help. 3 papers this wk! kinda worried but not stressed as yet. haha wonder why...

i wanna shout!

wayne's a happy baby, if i ever saw one. he is so cute, and looks just like his dad. i look at their little family, and think that it is an epitome of happiness. their short visit makes a saturday afternoon so much more cheerful=)

club med's almost ready to go! YAY

valen & vanessa.

there are times when i don't want to answer so many questions, cause it makes me feel like you're testing me, testing how much i let on what i truly feel. taxing, and stressful.

but i know how important it is for you to be able to know what i'm truly feeling, so i shall constantly endeavor to speak the truth.

moody, PMS-y
a club med holiday is almost in sight=)

ok, i admit i'm cranky. and a bit spoilt, used to getting things my way.
and i'm way crankier when i don't eat when i'm hungry. just can't stand the gastric pain.

first paper down, and well, it's really DOWN, most of the questions i just scribbled whatever i thought was remotely relevant. haha but i can finally keep those disgusting notes away from me. yay!

next paper - seeing stars!

and going to club med sounds just like a great idea for a family getaway, but it's just so ex! and what if it's not fun? then i would be blamed! oh no. think about it after exams la hor, ria bintan club med, 4d3n $876 per head!!!!=O

going back to school on a sunday isn't fun.

tuesday is free cone day at ben & jerry's! hee hee

i shall keep finding small little things to keep myself cheerful throughout the whole exam period.

your love humbles me, to admit misgivings and learn to get rid of bad traits.

it's not that i need you less than you need me. it's just that i know the solution is something i can't do, and so i push myself away from that edge, where i am unable to think straight without you.

over these 2 days, i know i have been unreasonable and easily agitated. sometimes i wish that you know what's wrong, without requiring me to tell you. yet, I'm guilty that sometimes even i don't really know what's wrong. there's just an uneasiness within.

i know you love me, and i sure as hell love you. but there is some part of me knowing that we wouldn't be together if there were some other girl around. and sometimes i think that you should have a smarter, prettier, more obedient girl as your girl. not me. and this is in part the reason for my uneasiness.

the second part for my uneasiness is perhaps i'm not happy with the way i live my life now, not studying hard enough, yet not sleeping enough nor spending time with my family. there is no reason to deny that this is cause of you. in actuality, i don't mind it so much, if it wasn't for you demanding still more time of us.

i don't want to have only 'us time', i want to have 'me time' and 'family & friends time' as well.

oh, who said love was easy?

i've got so much i want to say. but so much that i can't say.

three days to study for a paper, hope it's enough.

lately, it seems your smiles have lessened, so has mine. perhaps they are related.

mugging every once a year is tolerable, but not every half a year. and my result still has to be affected by the bell curve. grrr...

i want something to hug tight!! why don't i have a ladybird cushion like gen?! lol

these few days, i seem to have forgotten to be more caring. the reason would be that i'm just desperately clutching at straws for the exams, but you will say this is unnecessary worry. i promise to make it up!

sometimes I see someone miserable, cause of studies or cause of love, or some other factors, and I just hope I could convince the person in some way, that they will walk through this gloom, and tell them not to despair.

but sometimes, i despair too. can an older, more mature me shake the present me, to tell me things will work out in the end? crazy thought? ok, i concede, it is a bit mad.haha

it doesn't really matter who started a relationship, it matters though, who ended it. don't know why i suddenly have this sentence in my head. haha

my parents are supposed to be home already! and they cannot be contacted! which makes me an ant on a pot.

long weekend drawing to an end, and it has drawn me into an illusion that exams are still far far away! obviously, this is not true.

17, 23, 24, 27, 3. and then i'm free. anyone cares to make post-exams plans? =p

3 days of zero parental guidance. haha woohoo~!

they're coming back tomorrow, truth is, i miss them just that little bit. =p

lethargic. nua.

the exam period always seem to find me totally unprepared. unbelievable..

won't the headache please go away, it makes me grouchy and agitated. spoilt my day and yours and yours. sorry.

4 days of holidays doesn't seem so fun anymore, not with exams just round the corner, and two tests next week.

my pillow doesn't give me a good night's sleep.

i like this picture where they are all grinning happily. wenjin's birthday on 27/02. that lazy pig finally uploaded the pictures=)

sleepy yawn.

my thigh must be so comfortable

AH! i hate the end of weekends! back to the grind. haiz